Don't quit

I have not wanted to excersize. At all. But I have been getting on that treadmill and doing an hour everyday.My feet are sore, the music isn't giving me a boost. Is it mental? hmmm.. who knows

Eating. I have been tracking since Monday. Everyday this week I have woke up feeling bloated and uck. I feel like eating by the points is making things worse. I feel like I am eating all the time (I am ) I have 30 points and I am making good choices but my body feel yuck. does that make any sense?

Last night my very best friend called. She was 12 weeks pregnant and she had a miscarriage. I am gutted for her. Our 9 year old sons have been BEST friends since they were 18 months old. She is really my only and dearest friend. We were both single mums together. We got married within a week of each other. We had our 2nd baby girls within 4 months of each other. Then I screwed it up and had livy!! ;-) she has been wanting a third. She had a miscarriage a year ago this week. Now this. I feel so bad. I drove 40 minutes to her house last night to brng her some flowers. I was trying to be slick and just set them in the door and while I was shutting the door, I leaned on the door bell. Slick eh? hehe..

Anyway, I need to remember that even though this diet stuff is crap, it is making me healthy. I need to keep going. It has only been two weeks. One week since I started the treadmill. What am I expecting? a miracle?

Must go , ciao