Happy

What a nice day it is here today. Mid winter and it's sunny and 40 degrees farenheit. I love the sunshine. It makes me so happy. I really am an outdoorsy person. Even when it's cold or rainy, I love the feeling of the weather on my face. It makes you feel alive.
Today started out a bit crap. The girls were up so much last night. I think I managed to get about 3 hours straight sleep (which seems to be about my average lately) I thought the girls would have a sleep in. But Daniel made sure that didn't happen! Omigoodness. HE was singing and walking like an elephant today. It was really cute if not a wee bit annoying! Chloe woke up then proceeded to wake Olivia. I called my friend to go the park but poor Chloe got a tummy ache, she was constipated. She has never been constipated before. If there was ever a time I wish I could take her pain away and feel it for her I would have done it today. Poor little girl! I put her in the tub and rubbed her belly for an hour then she finally went. She was fine after that. We didn't get to go to the park with my friend. Unfortunately, Livy's late night caught up to her and she needed a nap. She slept for an hour. After I bundled them up and took them to the playground near my house. They had a blast. They were both asleep within 3 minutes of leaving. I love the outdoors and its effect on the chillins! I got home and felt so reved up from the sun that I got on the treadmill. I went hard for an HOUR!! I have never done a machine for that long. At the most 45 min on the elliptical. It felt soo good. I feel so good for having done it. I even ran a few times. Not for long but I had the urge so I did it. Three weeks ago, I could barely do 10 minutes. It's amazing what a little good music and some motivation do for you. This really is such a mind over matter issue for me. I must be so screwed up in the head. Even feeling better today makes me realize if I am being honest with myself, how negative and depressed my attitude is. My poor hubby and kids.I have to remeber this when I want to quit because it is always so easy to backslide. I am feeling so strong again and so alive. I love it.