Motivated

Over the last six months I have truly been wanting to diet. I have memorized WW points, I have tracked my points several times, I have journaled and read books by Dr. Phil and followed ediets. But I lacked the one thing I was most missing. Motivation. During the six months of diet planning (hehehe) I have come accross some fantastic weight loss blogs. I have watched girls like me turn into slender,healthy, breath takingly gorgeous women. They are inspirational, they are real. I rarely post as I am a lurker but these people have changed my life! They have helped me realize, I WANT THAT. I want that feeling. I want that inner peace that I am looking for.
I just read a blog where a women had a big reveal to her family. I am going to have that too. My husband is From Christchurch, New Zealand. We met on the internet 5 years ago. We have been married 4 years. My husband has been in the states since Feb 10th 2003. That was the last time my in laws have seen me. I have had two babies since then and dealt with Post Partum Depression. I was 224lb the last time they saw me and now I am up to 275lb. (this being a family of women who weigh 50-55kg)
We are going home to see them this year.
I REFUSE to go back the way I am this moment.
I have been doing well this week, I decided to start with small changes as I hadnt found my MOTOVATION, I started drinking water this week, tracking my food and eating no snacks and smaller portions. I have done well and feel like it was a start but now I am truly ready.I thank the lord that I have found what I was missing. Thank you to all of you who have blogged about your journeys. It has had an amazing effect on my spirit.