WOW

Last night my neighbor came over while I was giving the girls a tubby. We chatted for a bit, then she asked me if I wanted to order out for dinner. I did something I have never done, ever. I said NO. Hooray!!
You see I have a little neighborhood with about 5 families in it. Whenever somebody orders pizza, takeaways from resturaunts, subs, you name it, I am up for it. I LOVE to eat out. I think she almost collapsed from shock! ;-) I was so proud of myself! I had just eaten dinner, chicken, half a sweet potatoe, grean beans and salad. I was full and happy. Before even though I had eaten, I would have eaten again. I even ordered my hubby his fave fish and chips, and me I had NOTHING! I really have a different way of thinking or should I say, at that moment, making that choice. I DID IT!
I had to run out to Babies R Us to get a few things and on the way home I thought, umm I need something sweet.I had purchased some Nabisco 100 cal packs earlier and they were still on my front seat. I opened one up and had it. Fit into my points and I was satisfied!! ANOTHER GOOD CHOICE! IT is getting easier. I think thats the thing about dieting. ITs that first few days, once you get rolling, it gets a bit easier doesn't it?
Iread an article with Bob Greene recently. It said, most overweight people think they don't deserve to be thin. He said to tell yourself, YOU DESERVE TO FEEL GOOD, EAT HEALTHY and LOSE WEIGHT.I keep saying it and I think it may be sinking in.
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I just wanted to make one other note, cause after reading my past entries
I just wanted to day this. This past year has been the hardest of my life. I had a baby in December, a one year old(both girls with SEVERE food allergies) and my 8 year old son was diagnosed this year with Apergers, a form of autism. I have had very little sleep. My husband works 6 days a week, from 5am until 9, 10 or 11 pm (gets out at 4pm then works on his hobbies at his mates shop) I have no family , the closest is 7 hours away) so read VERY LITTLE SUPPORT. I have been the most lonely in my life. I am in the midst of a very bad postpartum depression, on my way out. I guess I feel guilty for sounding like a complainer. I really do love my life. I adore my husband. He loves me at my complete worst and has the best outlook on life. My children delight me everday. They are beautiful, vivacous, and absolutley amazing little creatures. But I am an emotional eater and this year has been og so very emotional. I am not blaming anyone but myself for what I put in my mouth. But, I know that untl I heal my soul, I won't ever lose this weight. SO, I need right now this minute to get some of the negative crap I feel out of my system, so yeah I know I am going to complain. But just for the record, I AM SO GREATFUL for everything I have. but sometimes it really can suck ;-)