Failure

I feel like I have failed so much! When I started January 9th, I had such big plans. I have waivered. I keep looking back and saying, if I had just pulled finger, I would be at such and such a weight already.. I am TOTALLY beating myself up. and yet I haven't truly failed. My life is different. I no longer drink soda 8 times a day. I have it only for special occasions, maybe 3 times a week. (I was addicted ADDICTED to diet cherry coke ;-)
I have lost 8.7 kgs. Thats not bad...
I use the treadmill at least 3 times a week for 40 minutes.
I am more active in my daily life..
I drink 8 glasses of water a day
I am making healthier food choices

I'm NOT failing, I am taking my time.

I just wanted to go to NZ, 24kgs lighter. So I feel like I failed. Such a mental case I am...

oh well, it could always be worse... I could have GAINED weight.